#~ MeMorieS of you & me ~#
Dear, I miss you..
Sometimes jus have the strong urge to see you, listen to you talking to me ..However, really hurtful after I sms you..cos most of the time you didnt reply..regret doing so.
I know I can easily use these times to be firm in my stand. If only I can be determined to give up on this "drag" relationship, will I be happier? Jus that.. i cant bring myself to that..Jus wanna give you more time, more chance. Always finding excuses to persuade myself..give you my utmost trust and faith in this relationship..Dear, do you understand my feelings?
A simple sms or a short call.. is that really difficult for you..? Or am I making difficult for you.. like what Hani say mah? Cos, you are still not my boy.. Hmm.. *sadsad* I dun understand why.. for most of the relationship..I'm always the one putting in more effort than the partner in the end. No matter who start this relationship, I'm always getting this feeling that I'm the one who loves you more, want you more. Dear, I dun like this feeling. I'm easily contented de.. really.. cos jus a simple sms, or call can easily lock my heart to you. Yet, you forget this small small detail of me..
What is love actually? Do I always to to concede my lost to you? .. I need you to support also.. I know you busy now.. busy with your assignment.. but i jus need your small small of concern and care, letting me know what I did is worth it.. dun let me have the feeling that I'm just wasting my time or even worst, you cant feel anyth..
But.. do let me know...if I'm wrong in anyth, cos.. I will then know wat to do.. Like me & piggy, now everyth settle le.. promise?
Haix.. feel that I let hani down.. I'm sorry.. give me some time k? Now what I really need.. is a stable shoulder, showers of care, concern & love, understanding and a listening ear.. deardear.. am i really asking for too much..? Hahax, I guess so..
Jus now went "shopping" with rachel, learnt sth from her experience.. in relationship.. sometimes.. its common for the "rare concern" *secret* ..Is wat she said true for you? Hahax.. if thats so, I'm more relieved..*secret*
Recalling what piggy asked me, dear I jus wanna let you feel my happiness with you and nth more. I dun wanna let you feel the loneliness and sorrow I get the times without your care & concern. I wanna let you know.. really ...
dear, wo zhen de ai ni ..
Cupid Love[9:10 PM]
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