#~ MeMorieS of you & me ~#
Darling~
Hmm, i dunno if i should cont calling u tat... It has been 3mths le... Actually today, i hav a lot of "gan chu"; emotions. But then dunno how to express in words..
Today, had a COJ meeting. So met u again. Before the COJ, had another "meeting" abt personal affairs. Hahax. Got 3 luv consultants, brain-washing me. hahax.. I understand their meaning, "gu xin".. jus that its not as easy as said in actions. Till now, i still had tears whenever i recall the memories. Memories are meant to be sweet, yet how i long for them...Still cry over u.. Silly me~
Actually, me is very soft-hearted over u... whenever u do sth simple yet sweet to me, be it jus small stuff like a greeting msg etc. Me overjoyed liao. Easily contented so long i hav u... Dun ask for more le...
Thats my biggest fault - if my status is single, whenever a potential guy is nice, me easily jus fall in luv de. But of cos, the most impt criteria which i looking for is .... the feeling, the chemistry which i lost with u...
I do meet betta guys than u, character betta etc, but all didnt pass my test, i jus dun hav any chemistry.. wat u wan me to do? But i believe it takes time to nuture a relationship, so leave all to fate bah~ if we really meant to be together, we will be de just sooner or later only.
Darling~ i dun say that i am capable of dng that of cos, I noe that i dun hav this strong luv to change ur character. But i'll jus give my one LAST try my best & that one day me will make others to change their impression of u. I really hope that i hav this determination to wait for u, to change perhaps etc..be it months or so. I noe u still trying to get over her.. Time...
Sometimes, me jus trying to be "cool" by not affected by u etc.. like i dun care abt u, but its difficult at times, when i really care.
Cos.. we are now only frenx, there are things which i used to do, now cant do le.. Hav to adapt & change my mindset soon.. Hahax..
Hmm, so shocked sia today~ Hahax.. 2 guys asked me for the same movie date. Wah~ 1st time encounter..Blessing of cos, but jus abit sad bah, cos u didnt asked me. Haha. Anyway, since i promised one 1st, hav to reject the other lo. But think will hav a make-up movie date bah~ How nice if its u who ask... >_<"
Anyway, dar~ guess till now me only hav u in my heart.. no matter how "cool" or "emotional" u r, i'll will wait for u...till someone else can touch my frozen heart...
-missya lotz- *muacks*
Cupid Love[11:44 PM]
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