Friday, November 18, 2005
#~ MeMorieS of you & me ~#
Hmm.. recalling one mth fr today, 17th of Oct, heartbroken & sorrow day.
One mth le.. since we break. Darling~ can u feel the pain i felt? Hav u ever regret abt ur decision? U intial the break, and on that day u not in a good mood to tok abt that. Thus, no matter how i wish to patch, u still insist on ur firm stand. Jus getting annoyed and irritated only. Is that fair to me? Nono.. No explaination, nth.. When i'm still lost and anxious abt u, u break these news to me. Jus felt like i sudden lost the whole world, only lonely in this big crowded places, having no place for me.
U wan me to be understanding, cos u being the president, will be busy thus not much time for me. I understand and didnt ask for more. U wan me to be patient, nxt yr when u pass down, u will hav more time with me le. Yes, i will wait patiently for the time to come. Once u said that tho we r jus together for few days, our luv grow deeper that u cant imagine how it will b like if we together for years.. Really happy to hear that. Sweet of u~ But these r past le... ... Yet, i still dunno wat went wrong, when the luv felt so strong..
Darling~ i tot i can let go, i tot i can treat u as frenx only, i tot i can oso treat as nth has happened. But in actual fact, i simply cant.. I dunno how u can do so, but i dunno how. U didnt teach me.. cos we didnt plan for this outcome.. The feelings grow stronger when i met u, u choose to ignore my presence, trying to avoid meeting each other, is it because we hav the same reason? .. cos cant really let go so easily as u said, u afraid that aft we get close again, patching again? So we choose to avoid any direct approach in this topic. Is that wat u really wan? I dunno wat had happen tat make u change ur mindset so fast, few days ago we were happily together at forever land, yet afterwhich break liao...
I really wanna noe.. darling~ no matter wat it is, i wanna hear fr bottom of ur heart. I noe u like to keep things to urself. Thanks for trusting me before, for telling me stuff which u usually keep in low profile..
Darling~ come back hao mah? I need u.. really.. tho i noe that u will only be happy with the person u really luv together. If u really no feelings le.. then i shant le... I noe action is louder than words.. give me time bah..
I'll wait for u, stay by ur side, whenever u need me (tho u wont say to me) i will be dere for u..
Cupid Love[11:52 PM]
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