Saturday, November 12, 2005
#~ MeMorieS of you & me ~#
Hm.. Sudden blankout.. dunno wat to write.. cos many many things i wanna say abt.
Darling~ i missya deeply u noe... sometimes i will use my heart to call u.. telepathy bah jus hope it will reach u.. Hav u ever sense that? Several days since we last met at the COJ meeting. But it somehow didnt end happily, a few disagreement bah i guess. hmm..
I hav borrowed tat "Prince turned into Frog" VCD Part 1. Aft watching, i hav a strange feeling. U r like the Dang ou, the time when he had a car accident and lost his prev memory. He oso lost the serious and strict type of "shan jun hao" the prev him, GM of Senwell. Instead he became a more cheerful, easy gng guy. Hmm, when we r together, tats abt the same as Dang ou and Ye Tian Yu. The natural and comfortable cheerful couple. Dang ou can get serious easily and handles last min change in a wit. Very skillful indeed, noe a lot of stuff. Jus like u. Whereas me, the cheerful, happy-go-lucky type.
However, there's another accident when Dang ou was admitted to hospital and regained his prev memory. Therefore, he lost his memory when he was with Tian Yu. Jus pretend that nth had ever happened. That's the time when u initial a break with me... claimed that there wasnt any feelings in the 1st place. Darling~ do u noe how hurt i felt when i heard that... heartbroken, into many parts cant patch back till now.... If there r no feelings at all, y do we start in the 1st place? Since we hav been together, tho for 3wks only..sure there r memories bah? How can u jus behave like nth hav ever happen? U dun wanna hear me explain nor wanna tok abt this topic anymore.. Like being sentenced to death without pleading... How can u bear...? i really wanna hear u say.. i noe u dun wan hurt me more so instead jus wanna avoid. But i rather make clear abt my doubts before i can really let go... Listening to Jay ' hei she mao yi' wo de xin hao tong... hao tong wor.. u noe.. The three words which u used to say seems to disappear and gone forever le.. ..
= To give up someone i luv so deeply is miserable, do u noe? =
Darling~ honestly.. i did tried to let go and behave like u treat as nth happen before, jus remain as frenx. But i dunno y.. the memories kept lingering around when i saw u.. the pain i cant decribe in words.. Furthermore, even more hurtful by ur cold behaviour towards me.. Sometimes, u jus treat as i was invisible.. Feel like crying my heart out to u.. but cant.. wat u wan me to do? U tot me lots of things fr skating to bowling, but u nvr teach me how to handle such situation.. how will i noe? U jus merely say wanna b frenx.. No warning.. nth given before ur "request". Or prehaps, ur "cold period" of that one week is ur warning le. I sensed it, but jus believed that we will not b history. But i guess.. i was wrong...
I mus confessed that only when u left.. i realised how impt u r to me. I'm sorry.. will u accept? Prehaps i'm still engrossed in that sweet dreamx and dun wish to wakie yet bah.. If i hav a choice, i rather not. Trust me hao mah? To me, u r like my support pillar, without u i hav no wish to b the same me le. I wasnt happy any day aft tat. Cos, i lost u .. so thats nth which can cheer me le. I luv u jus the way u r. U said before u had low confidence in urself, thus low morale abt ur appearance. Darling~ silly u arh~ if i really luv u, do u think i will care abt ur appearance mah? All i noe and feel is ur thoughts and concern which really touched my heart. Nvr ever regret being with u, trust me k? Jus hope u wont oso... will u ever miss me aft we parted? I really really wanna noe..tho i'm afraid that the truth is not wat i wanna hear...
Darling~ all i wanna say is.. I luv u, and i promise to b by ur side in times of joy and sorrow. Will we ever be together again..like before? I noe u will leave me eventually, i noe all i wait and wished for will not ever come true.. but i still stubbornly hold on.. I'm sorry, i simply still cant let go...
Cupid Love[12:51 PM]
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